update...(not dead yet! awesome!)

so ya... i'm still here... alive... physically... but dead on the inside...
everytime i'm here, i have this terrible feeling of anxiety... it's aweful! i hate it... i feel like i can't calm down.. it's the wind, and the noise and the general state of being here... i can't take it! (breathe...breathe.. find the zen centre... oooo in my mind's eye i can see my aliases!)
i talked to DW today, and he knows a guy who knows a guy who works at the sony store.. in a couple of weeks we'll go see about Mr. V and see if we can get a groovy jewish discount! (hazza!)
tomorrow i go to see shirley... and beg for shifts... (keep your fingers crossed)
last night i saw a friend of mine that i've known since i was 8 yrs old! i hope to see her again tomorrow....
b4 i talk about the baby... i just wanna say.. this doesn't change the core of what i was saying all along...(about how there's no point in getting to know her blah blah blah, she's here, i'm home, blah blah blah)
she's very even.... and good tempered... so that's nice... and surprisingly, for a baby, she's clean... no oozing gunk or anything.. and she's friendly... (not AT ALL photogenic... so she's a lot cuter in real life) i'm not gushing and i won't be when i get back.. .i'm simply saying she's ok... i approve, and i'll stop referring to her as the damn baby... (she gives me big hugs and kisses... blah!)
what else? i hate the douche bag.. (jugss, start working on the curse agaiN!)
i'm off to watch sin city w/ my bro..
my dog is insane! i worry about him...
and i got my nails done today...
and i think i'm starting weight watchers like.. tomorrow...
we'll see how it goes..
stay safe kids!
miss/love you all...
xoxo
random quote: i bet you even called us beavers on your radio, didn't you? ya, i did! DAMN! i hate that, i hate being called a beaver!