have i mentioned that i LOVE being crazy???

ok friends... (haa haa... friends.. i'm on season 2..)
alias finally has a date...
box set AND season five both come out in 110 days...
i'm going into saving mode again...(need around 400 ish bucks.. .b/c...)
being insane and terribly impressionable.. i need both the fifth season (to complete my whole single seasons thing) and i need the box set b/c it's cool! it has a rambaldi themed pack and bonus materials not on any of the other dvds, AND a hard cover book with cool stuff in it...
so ya... AND... 51 more days till gilmore 6 comes out...
i can't wait!
it's a good thing...

random quote: why do you wanna know my name? b/c i wanna know who i'm looking at...

coule i BE anymore impulsive?

that's right...
i got all ten seasons of friends! (Z, are you schwitzing?!)
futureshop is selling each season for 19.95...
so ya... i went to 2 stores, and got all ten seasons... give me a month..TOPS and i'm done w/ watching them all...
i'm uberstoked... i've missed a lot of the last few seasons... so ya.. i'm a happy camper...
that's all i got for now...
relevant quote: hi, i'm chandler, could i BE wearing more clothes?!

real world.. here i come... (err.. sorta..)

so.. HOLY WEEK OF NO SLEEP...
this has been the LONGEST weekend of my life... it actually started last week:
since i work in the good city on wednesdays, i usually don't sleep till thurs. (wake up tues. b/w 1-3pm and stay up till thurs. 4 am ish) so did that... got up thursday.. felt like ass...(b/c previous night's shoot was hectic as always... ) and i had to go to the theatre to re set some lights... luckily MJ drove.. woot woot...
friday is a blur... oh, yeah, we had the MOST AMAZING show... it was incredible! i definately want to see these guys again! it was great.. we had a great audience too.. lots of dancing, loud music... totally groovy!
so then sat. i went to bed at 5ish (in the am) got up at nine am... (gag) and had to go to be house manager... so i biked.. got caught in the rain... and went into an air conditioned room... :S got bitter... but stayed and watched some shows... then had to bike home, quickly eat, and run back to dundas to the theatre for that night's show...
so as the evening progressed.. i was feeling worse... and i think i had a fever... and kevin said i looked like 20 kinds of crap... so i was sent home... bought some meds... and had a short nap...(on and off for an hour...) sunday came... and instead of sleeping.. i went to newmarket... to visit x neighbors... it was great! so during the drive there and back, i napped.. and crashed briefly on their couch... and even snuck a nap in church....(yup that's right... i was the jew in the pew... )
so then after being up for 34 hrs.. i had a nice nap... (approx. 5 hrs.) and now i'm up again.. and i have to be up early tomorrow... blah..
ok.. so job hunting sucks... i've applied to a bunch of places.. there's a few that i REALLY wanna get... so send me positive energy ya'll...
one is for the canadian opera company.... how cool would that be?! (i don't know jack about opera.. but think about it... it would be so super cool!!!)
and a few others i'm waiting to hear from... fingers crossed...
i saw basic instinct 2... shitty movie... by all accounts... BUT... holy hot sharon stone... whoa... she's a total babe! i'd buy it just to ogle her... she's got great legs... but it was an awful flick.. i also started watching the libertine.. and sadly... was sooo bored... :S (odd...seeing as my pretend boyfriend is in it.. johnny depp...)
major shoutout to jojo... first off... feel better babe... and also for being my ebay bitch... i'm forever grateful!!!
and now..i'm off it's 3 am... judging amy is on.. followed by third watch...
take care you groovy ppl!!!
much love and peace!
ps. on the horizon: buying a double feature of the neverending story (1st and sequal) and dixie chickds cds :D

random quote: there is no dana, only zuul!

it's almost time....

i've been thinking A LOT lately about winter...
and i know ya'll are telling me shut it.. and not think about it b/c you're enjohying summer..and i'll jinx it... blah blah blah...
but i dunno.. when i think of winter.. of cold... smthing in me awakens... smthing stirrs.... my frozen/non existant heart starts to beat...
i can't describe it... or explain it...
i really think i have reverse SAD... come winter, and i can't seem to stop smiling... i can't find a flaw in the world... everything is full of possibilities, and happiness is endless...
the air smells so crisp, the nights are clear, and there's magic in the air...
winter is so....romantic (as in...amazing and indescribable... not couples holding hands sipping coco... or some crap...) the cold wraps me in this protective cocoon... and i melt...
i know.. this all sounds fruity and weird...but that's what winter does to me... i can't wait.. i wish i could count it down...
i wish i could put it in a snowglobe and look at it during the hot summer days...
(oh my god! that's why i love snowglobes! note to everyone, movies and snowglobes are ALWAYS welcomed presents! [round ones, not those half ones...] ooo this xmas, i'm so getting myself an expensive snowglobe!!!! oooo i can't wait!!! WINTER! WHERE ARE YOU?!)
random quote: do you trust me? no, but lets do it anyways...

is this morbid?

they haunt me....

i've killed 3 massive monster spiders over the last while...
sometimes i think that the ghosts of the spiders i've killed will come back to haunt me.. other times i think that when i vacuum them, they gain superstrenth and they'll come back as mutated beings out to kill me...
sometimes, late at night, i think that under my bed is the giant spider overlord... and he's spewing out all the other spiders to get me...
i'm afraid to look under my bed...
sometimes i wish i had voices in my head... so i wounldn't be so lonely...i'd have an imaginary parter in crime...other times i wish they'd just SHUT UP!
sometimes i wish i didn't exist... i wonder what it would be like to be cartoon voice. to be a telephone...a useful inanimate object...
most of the time i wish i had superpowers... i want to fly... and to manipulate things...
i want to wear a hot leather outfit with a cape...
i want to be a writer, writing from home...i want a credit card so that i can live out my days indoors... order stuff in...

random quote: what if you don't have a secret? then you're a lifer, like me...

ya...i got nothing...

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably