some people... just plain suck...

someone saved my life today...mmmm

on my way to work today i was standing on the edge of the sidewalk fiddling w/ my sony... when a HUGE truck came swirving around the corner... i wasn't paying attention... and this guy said, LOOK OUT! and pulled me back....
it was insane...
other than that...shoutouts to my bitches!
new movies to add to the collection: ultimate 2 disc ed. of dirty dancing and while you were sleeping...(ya.. today was cheesy sappy movie day)
random quote: i've given you free cable, what have you ever given me?!

one of life's great adventures....

so the evening began in the midst of the first rush of friday night... i saw a friendly face in the crowd...
me: HEY JULIE!
julie: hey hermit, can i get a raisin glosset? oh and give me a call when you're done, i'll give you a ride...
me: awe.. thanx! how come?
julie: i have a car... and by the way.. we're going on a roadtrip!
me: whoohoo! where to?
julie: i dunno...
me: who's coming?
julie: you!
so after closing, a quick change of clothes and a water refill, we were on our way...
we pulled up just as monica was shutting off the lights and going up to bed... after convincing her for just under 34.7 seconds (b/c she had to be at work at 6:30 am), she hopped in the car... next, we called miranda, and BEGGED her... this took a bit more convincing.. but alas we succeeded.. and off we were... to go where the wind takes us!
we ended up in niagra... and went up and down the strip... and then at around 2:30am ish... we went to wendy's where things got just a bit out of control...
a sample of what went on (though we were laughing SOOO much and so hysterically... you'd think we were all drunks):
"monica's the new chuck norris! if anyone can break hair, she can!"
"funniest woman alive! i don't get it.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA is that from a movie or a play?"
"chicken piece is that a new move?"
"i don't eat around monica to stay alive!"

so now it's like... 3 am... and we head over the casino... and played the slots.. me and monica had the best luck... and i finally won the most.. i won a jackpot on one machine and won 10 bucks.. but i gambled it away.. and finally left w/ $6.25...(which isn't bad, seeing as i only put out 5 bucks... ) and the clerk was super nice.. ken.. who had been up for 20 hrs..but was just a doll...
on the way home we were sidetracked to guelph... (BUT I DON'T WANNA GO TO GUELPH! WHAT'S WRONG W/ THE HIGHWAY?! HERMIT, PAY ATTENTION!)
so it's almost 7 am... i just got in a few minutes ago... and tonight was just one of the best EVER... i love my crazy friends! and i love their insanity...
can't wait for the next one!!!
xoxo
random quote (from real life): what's wrong w/ her.. she's crazy! is that really a reasonable explanation considering who all is in this car?!

so it's been a while since...

i worked w/ ppl... a lot of ppl... this is the first time in a while that i've had a "real" job... and a steady one... (i'm starting to work mon-fri: 10:30-5:15) i've never had a job w/ an actual lunch break... a break room...etc.
today i got my first real taste of some of weirdos at work... i LOVE IT!
one guy... we'll call him... nate... is crazy...(and not the good kind, like me... lol)
today he told us how he went to a hell's angels party, fucked some bitches, and did every drug in the book... before that it was how he killed a guy who gave him trouble at a bar he was working at...(and how the police didn't do anything...) apparently, he's killed many a man.. and has bodies buried all over canada, in buildings no one walks into... he's also having an affair with mrs. claus... (as in.. santa's woman...)
needless to say this is a bittersweet story... it's funny... but sad at the same time...everyone else at work seems to just enjoy the stories...
everyone else is nice... so far... and today i moved up from bar to box office...(a coveted job that they don't give to rookies...)(there are people who've worked there for months, begging to move up, and they don't move them... today was my 3rd shift.. i feel special... and i told everyone not to hate me...)
no word on the t.o gig... the schedule wasn't up yet.. tomorrow... (fingers crossed again please... shoutout to lisa!)
what else can i tell you? i've taken to evening naps/sleeps... so i'm still up all night.. so all's still right w/ the world...and that's pretty much it..
i'm off to get some grub... and watch sheryl crow on larry king live..
peace out!
random quote: those people are not the enemy mother! we are!

jobs galour....

so this little hermit needs everyone's good awesome luck vibes...
there's a job offer i got in the good city and i REALLY REALLY REALLY... REALLY want it..
it's pretty decent moola... and it's in my field.. and it's just an all around groovy gig...
i have to take a test to get the job.. tomorrow i'll know when i can take the test...
so everyone... send out your vibes my way...
xoxo
thanx...
random quote: where are they? dead...dead dead deadsky...

R.I.P

something within me has died...
the core of my being has faded...
the essence of my existance is no longer...
i feel lost and ordinary...
my conversation peace has been muted..
my blood runs red and regular... its consistancy pure liquid...
iron and oxygen...
i can't breathe...i'm wrapped in a slumber... clouded memories of past ecstacy...
i crave what is gone... i want what i can't have...
the exterior speaks volumes... the decision is right.. but why does the anguish run so deep?
i am restless and tired...devoid of power...devoid of strength...devoid of ME...

i WAS right!

several years ago i diagnosed myself w/ having intermittant insomnia... there would be times where for weeks i didn't get a good night's sleep... this would happen every couple of months or so.. and last for a couple of weeks... EVERYone told me to see a dr. about that... and to quit the caffeine...
so now... having quit the caffeine (will post more about that later) the insomnia has returned... so i'm not THAT crazy.. i was right! i rule! (doing little happy dance)

in other news.. today i had my first shift.. venturing out into the workingpersons world... and it was pretty groovy... i learned that the day has a 10 AM... and i think i saw the sun for the first time in a while... (my eye hurt... thank heavens for the dark refuge of my little basement)
i have 3 more shifts this week, and i think i should hear from this other place soon...
hazza...(hopefully before sept. that way i get a DISCOUNT! woot woot!)
and that's pretty much it...
on my first shift today, i hurt myself 3 times: 2 bleeding cuts and one bruise..i'm ace... hopefully they won't fire me for that...
the world is a grand place to be.. and i'm sure more adventures await me...

random quote: ...DON'T MESS WITH ME MAN, I'M A LAWYER!

renewed faith....

today was the finale of the tv show...(for anyone w/ rogers specialty channels.. it's on outtv... and it's called coverguy)... mathieu the host gave me a MAJOR shout out.. it was totally brilliant! i had my 15 mins today.. .(note to self.. once season 2 comes out.. BUY IT!) it was great.. the crowd LOVED ME! (and really.. how could they not??) i played it cool w/ my shades and worked it w/ my fedora... it was great.. he was really sweet..
at this juncture..major shout outs to jugss, becca and sada.. who came and cheered... and just are groovy...(becca and me are on our way to becoming crazy stalker buddies.. i can't wait!)
what else? i have renewed faith that i will find a job in my chosen profession... i have some new leads.. and i found a groovy webpage w/ TONS of useful information.. will get on it this wknd...
tomorrow is orientation day... whoohoo! i'm excited...
w/ first paycheck: get canadian driver's license, get jugss her belated bday present, and maybe buy a movie...and try to save some...
ummm i think that's about all i can think of... sleep deprived... and running on empty.. must get some grub..
xoxo to all you dreamers!

hazza! i've done it! (again...)

today i finished watching friends... and boy.. what a ride it's been...
i LOVE that show... so sad.. so funny... i miss it...
tomorrow is the last day for shooting in the t.dot... and then thursday i have my orientation... and i also have another job in the works.. and i've been offered the lighting tech/assist. producer on a show at the dundas theatre... not sure about that yet... b/c i'm also waiting to hear about this other job (at theatre aquarius) AND they're waiting for my answer at this other place... (tee hee... no sleep and many money makes the hermit a happy camper!)
and what else?
there are 2 jobs i REALLY want..and there's a good chance for one of them to be positive.. will update...
ummm what else?
i found an easter egg for alias today! whoohoo! and w/ this advent of many jobs, i can probably buy my special/limited ed. box set! WHOOHOO!
and now i can also think about what show i wanna own next... csi or x files?
or...mmmm ah... the limitless possibilities... groovy!
k.. it's almost 2 am.. it's tv time!
peace out friends!
random quote: HOW ARE YOU DOING THAT?!

arts matter....don't they?!

so today my good friend satanboy gave me a ticket to see evita... on stage...
done by teenieboppers... i know what ya'll are thinking... but let me just say...
holy mother of wow! these kids, were AMAZING! and satanboy said this was an offnight...
i shudder to think what an on night sounds like...
this was my first time at theatre aquarius... and man, that's a nice theatre... i wanna work there... (sending in resume next week!)
the chick who played evita was just superb... (wasn't a fan of her operatic voice... but girl's definately got skills..)
the dude playing che... wow! divine musical theatre voice... i'd see him again...
sets were great.. the lighting fitting...(this hermit would LOVE to work those lights...)and it was just fantastic.. i dunno what it is about live music/theatre...it's so alive... and when it's done right.. it's pretty spectacular...

in other news.. i might be seeing the dixie chicks soon!
super major shout out to jugss who offered to go w/ me... eventhough she's not a fan..(after i refused to go see pearl jam w/ her.. and i am a fan...she's a better person than i...) and meg, who IS a fan... and just an all around groovy chick that lives too far... (b/c had she lived around here, this town would've been painted red long ago) so i'm in talks about this show... i can't wait... however.. being crazy...
even if we don't get tickets... i may just go down to the arena to meet them.... tee hee
what else can i tell you? i'm almost done season 8 of friends... i start work soon... and monday or tomorrow i'm going to accept the 2nd job... while still looking for smthing in the arts...
before i forget.. another shoutout goes to my ebay bitch! she got me my book! you rock ebay bitch! hopefully one day i can return the favour!
and that's all she wrote friends...
i'm off to get some grub and resume the friends-a-thon...
random quote: fuck me gently with a chain saw...

the hermit goes corporate!

so the last couple of days have been nothing short of amazing...
sunday my counterpart jugss came over... (already a good day!) we were invited to a bbq and LO-NG story short... we're brilliant! by sheer luck and fantasticness, we found the street we were looking for (after thinking we were lost).... THEN.. we went to see toni in her new flick, the night listener.. seriously disturbing film... AMAZING acting... LOVED IT! as we're trying to get home from ancaster... we get lost...(of course..) so we ended up in burlington... and again.. sheer luck and flukiness.. we found our way back to the hammer! (2 jugss together... unbeatable!)
sunday i also found out that i got a job! that's right...i have a job! i'm a productive tax paying member of society! woot woot! (AND..i get to watch free movies! money and movies... this hermit says this is a worthy cause... tre fab...)
monday i got together w/ some old friends (jay, jaunna, joe and becca) who bought me dinner...(massive shoutout! not b/c of the food...) had fun... 4 totally groovy ppl that i don't see enough... :(
tomorrow i hope to find out about a 2nd job... :S (yes.. this hermit is willing to leave the hole a lot for money... yes.. i AM a money whore...)
what else can i tell you? i'm totally over loading on friends (finishing up season 6 and starting season 7 tonight) and am COMPLETELY inlove w/ the dixie chicks... seriously considering going to their concert...(shoutout to jugss...)once the job starts rolling around... we'll see about tickets and moneys....
ummmm and i think that's it... for now... life is quite the adventure... and my head is the place it's at!!!
xoxo
the soon to be RICH hermit...
random quote: imitate a cat puking... (cat puking sounds) it's the name of the band...

oh canada...

so z gave me this amazing present... (z... i was just looking through it.. you're the best!)
it's this MASSIVE book of illustrations and info about this wonderful country of ours...
my missing heart skipped a beat w/ every page i turned...
what a beautiful country this is... i mean.. WOW... i plan to see it one day...all of it... muhahahahahahahahahaha

in COMPLETELY unrelated news, i'm on season 5 of friends (hoping to finish tonight)
and i have an interview tomorrow!!!! i hope to get it... i need MONEY.. (to buy more movies...) (z, again, thanx for the contribution!)
and finally... i'm totally inlove with the dixie chicks... i now have ALL their albums... and they're AMAZING... woot woot!
but for the record... i HATE country music...
random quote: burger, I'M DYING!!

top of the world...

I wished I was smarter
I wished I was stronger
I wished I loved Jesus
The way my wife does
I wish it had been easier
Instead of any longer
I wished I could have stood where you would have been proud
But that won't happen now
That won't happen now

There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now
Top of the world

I don't have to answer any of these questions
Don't have no God to teach me no lessons
I come home in the evening
Sit in my chair
One night they called me for supper
But I never got up
I stayed right there in my chair

There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now

I wished I'd a known you
Wished I'd a shown you
All of the things I was on the inside
I'd pretend to be sleeping
When you come in in the morning
To whisper good-bye
Go to work in the rain
I don't know why
Don't know why

Cause everyone's singing
We just wanna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Wanna grab a hold of that little song bird
Take her for a ride to the top of the world right now

(Instrumental)

Whoa, Whoa
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world...

easy silence...

When the calls and conversations
Accidents and accusations
Messages and misperceptions
Paralyze my mind

Busses, cars, and airplanes leaving
Burning fumes of gasoline
And everyone is running
And I come to find a refuge in the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

Monkeys on the barricades
Are warning us to back away
They form commissions trying to find
The next one they can crucify

And anger plays on every station
Answers only make more questions
I need something to believe in
Breathe in sanctuary in the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

Children lose their youth too soon
Watching war made us immune
And I've got all the world to lose
But I just want to hold on to the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me

The easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

dixie chicks