first comes love then comes pain...

beanie had this concept...or way of thinking... she looked at those around her, friends family etc. and saw what and how they contribute to her life...
jojo shares that sentiment...
i've been thinking lately about those around me... how do their lives fit into mine?
what do i bring to their existance? how do i contribute to their life? how do they contribute to mine?
i've been thinking about past relationships... those i've let go...those who've let me go... those i wish i'd invested more in... it's time to be active... it's time to grab what you want sarah sucks it's time to say what's on your mind... and to live life to the fullest! time to appreciate those around you.. learn all you can from your friends... tell those around you that you love them... that they mean smthing to you...
one of my biggest fears is dying before telling those around me that i love them... that they've influenced me... that they've made a difference in my life...
so to those around me... you know who you are... your life and your mere being is earth shatterningly amazing to me... my life takes it's shape from your friendships....

random quote: i'm going crazy a little every day and now everything i've wanted is now driving me away...