mystery unveiled...

so for the past over a week now, i've had this funky sore throat... gets worse at night.... but still paiful during the day... yesterday while seeing my fantastically amazing friend Z, i got chills... a fever, and it literally hurt to breathe...
today, i finally went to see a dr. and lo and behold.. i have strep... gross... i was given (for the 2nd time in my life) prescription drugs...(penicillin)and was sent home... now i sit, waiting for the drugs to take effect... i'm in pain... i hurt... i wanna eat...(25 more mins till i can) and hopefully it won't hurt too much...
on the bright side... i have alias to take my mind off things... i'm hoping to wrap up season 3 today and start season 4... and then... the coveted season 5...(i've only seen half of it...)
and then finally... the secretive.... disc 29... or is it 30? it's 29...
i can't wait... and i get to read the book too... oh, how exciting!!!!
can't wait!!!!
adios for now...
the sick hermit...
random quote: this isn't my first day on the job! i disconnected your call button!

sleep....

wow.. so i just had a like... million hr. nap...(or coma... i had a million hr. coma...)
and i could totally go back for more.... a little more alias.. and then maybe back to sleep...(i'm on season 3 :D)
but oddly enough, this isn't what this post is about...
a friend is smone who knows EVERYTHING about you and loves you anyways...
i really believe that...when i look at my friends... i can barely see their flaws... b/c they're my friends... each one beautiful in a very special way...
when i was younger, it took forever to get me upset... things would slide off my back... and i'd forgive and forget... and not really care...
in the past few yrs... this has totally changed.. and i can't seem to let things go...
i have this need to hold on... to remember every incident that affected me... etch it deep in my brain and let it fester...
right now.. i'm at a crossroads...one way says, that being angry and hateful is just too much work... and it just sucks the life out of you...
the other way says, ya.. but think about.... (whatever)... and don't forget about the time when.... and how that....
one part of me... has this need to be so incredibly mean... and destructive, and petty, and just plain mean and hurtful... but the larger part of me (which is mostly the boobs and the hair) doesn't believe in that... it says, forgive and forget... move on...
and then there's a million other voices that make no sense... the loudest one screaming, how the hell did i get here?! what the fuck's going on?! and i think one was saying attika over and over again.. not sure what that's about...
the only way to solve this is to think: wwsd? what would sydney do? (haa haa)
off to ponder...
random quote:
I hid my yo-yo
In the garden.
I can't hide you
From the government.

blah...

i hate having my own drama... the whole point is that i live vicariously... my friends have enough drama for 10,000 soaps... really...
but having drama of my own... so totally not my bag...
i'm no good w/ drama... esp. drama that involves... the F word...(no, not fucking.... feelings...gah!)
not sure what to do w/ this dramatic turn in life... i don't do confrontations... and i generally don't take problems head on.. i just hope they go away...
to complicate things more, i'm not sure how i want to handle this cunnundrum...(i'm not sure about the spelling of that.. but meh...)
so many avenues to take.. so many different responses.... so many questions, so many statements....
blah...
well... i'm off to be brain dead for a few hrs. at "work" and then continue alias...
will update on the developments...(that should hopefully occur)
prepetually in thought...
the hermit

thursday: adventures of the hermit in the big city...

last friday i got this call... that implied that i'd be in the good city on thrusday...
monday that was still the plan... wed. morning that plan was crushed... :(
wed. evening that plan was revived!! whoohoo!
b/w wed. night and thurs. morning.. i barely slept... watching alias...(duh) and being sorta bummed out about having to wake up super early.. and run around on my one day off... blah...
so off i went to the good city... took care of business...(hush hush as of yet...)
and then instead of running home for more alias(i know, shocking that another thought entered my mind... lol) i decided to drop in on my beloved counterpart for a surprise visit.. so i made my way to her office.. got lost (naturally) and finally... was at her office door.. knocked... silence... oh destiny! you cruel being! how dreadful! but i went to have her paged.. and several minutes later, she appeared! whoohooo!
we then had lunch at the jew hospital... good bread w/ bad veggies... and made plans for later... i wandered the streets of toronto and spent some monies...(bought a ton of incense and a book) and then ventured into her fabulous apartment... where i took a nap... watched some tv... and waited w/ abaited breath for her return...
and return she did... we proceeded to have the best pizza known to any living person! it was great! then we vegged out and watched some quality tv... and just had the best time...(as we always do... jugss, you make my heart smile :D)
then i got an upsetting piece of information...and then i made my way home... now.. at 10pm... i'm going to slip into my pjs.. and settle nicely into the magical world of alias :D ahhhh good times....
final thought... the good city rocks... i need to see my counterpart more often... and right now... life seems full of DOT DOT DOT
random quote: i don't want you to try and save me, i don't want you at all...

some days... i swear....

today started just aweful...
i wasn't in a good place... i was feeling just aweful...
but alas, i had to go out and face the world... blah...
i made my way into futureshop to buy season 5... and see what could be done about the boxset... i had practically given up the dream of owning the boxset... they only made 40,000... and i'm sure i'm not the only fanatic... and then i started thinking about all the ppl who probably ordered theirs online months ago... and why don't i have a credit card... and blah blah blah...
add to that.... i was feeling all funky about my friend... and how much i want to say to that person... and just how much i miss them...
SO ANYWAYS... i walked into the store... grabbed season five... and then saw it!!!!
in a ray of sun... ANGELS WERE SINGING!!!! they had 3 copies... i IMMIDIATELY grabbed one... and headed to pay.... it took a while b/c i had 4 gift cards... but whatever...
so i got season 5 AND the limited ed. boxset... and HOLY! it's more beautiful than i imagined... i had some time to further explore it when i got home.. and wow... it's friggin' amazing!
it's playing in the background as i type...
and now, i'm off to make the world's greatest meal... followed by an alias-a-thon!
woot woot to the max!
I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!
oh, and one more thing... futureshop had it on sale.. so i got whole thing for 250 bones! (i think it was actually 270, but i had 20 dollars in gift cards... so whoohooo!)
i'll be out of commission for a short time... (unless i've made previous plans.. ie. jojo and monica/julie play)

to my lost friend...

to echo the earlier sentiment... i miss my friend...
friend... i miss you sooooo much... i can't even convey into words the sadness i feel...
i miss you... i miss you... I MISS YOU!!!
where have you gone??? why aren't you here?!
i'm so sad...
i so wanted to share w/ you... EVERYTHING...
but you're gone.... i can't find you... you didn't leave a map...
the path you took is covered w/ mud, and i can't trace your steps...
all i can say is that i hope you found happiness and bliss...
and know that i think about you everyday...
sincerly,
the heartbroken hermit
random quote: my heart is sick of being in chains...

it's 7:22 am....
at 8 i'm going to shower...(and make myself look all pretty...) and then i'm out the door to buy season 5 of alias at my store...
THEN, i'm going to have to BEG to make a long distance call from "work" to bestbuy and yet again...BEG and PLEAD for them to save me a copy...
THEN i have to suffer through a whole bunch of hours.... schlepp my ass to burlington... and pray they save it for me... and if they don't.. pray they have a copy left...
if all this fails... friends w/ credit cards... i'll call on you to order it for me...
and then hope for the best...
IF THAT FAILS.... ebay.. here i come...(and i'll naturally call on my sexy ebay bitch)
so that's on the agenda today... blah... i totally should've booked today off... GRRRRR
i'm a sad hermit... i'm a fearful hermit...i wanna cry...
I WANT MY MTV! I MEAN... I WANT MY ALIAS!!!!!
random quote: and just like stars burning bright making holes in the night, we are building bridges....

sigh...

i miss my friend...

so desperate....

while waiting for the bus, i couldn't contain myself, and i called futureshop from the bus stop...from a payphone...
they did not have good news... they're not getting the alias boxset tomorrow.. they may get it later.. but not tomorrow... AHHHHHHHHHHH
so then i RUSHED home to call bestbuy in burlington to check if they could put it aside for me.. b/c i work, and then i have to bus it... again... not good news... they can't..
HOWEVER.. i will call again tomorrow and beg, plead and offer them degrading sexaul favours... for them to put it aside for me...
i'll do whatever it takes... i'll get my alias limited ed. boxset tomorrow...
on a positive note, futureshop DOES have season five for a very low price..(37.99) and i have 20 bucks in gcs... so i'll get it for a cool 20! woot woot!
other than that.. it's 8:43pm, i'm contemplating going out to get some grub...
mmmmmm
send vibes peeps... i NEED to have alias... or i'll die... seriously...
xoxo
the exhausted hermit
ps. i just called HMV and musicworld... at limeridge... BOTH have it.. for super expensive... ugh... burlington... here i come... :S

worried....

i just looked online... MY store doesn't seem to be carrying alias...
the complete boxset.. only the burlington store does....
this hermit is not looking forward to going to burlington to get the set...
however... i will make the journey....
blah... :(

TWO MORE FRIGGIN' DAYS!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHOOHOOO!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOLY!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!
WOOT WOOT!!!!!!

i do apologize... sorta....

so i just got off the phone w/ bestbuy burlington... it's true.. it's on sale for 199!!!!
200 bones for the complete series...(alias, of course...)
holy i'm excited!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT TILL TUESDAY!!!!
i just hope i can get futureshop to pricematch it... i'm going to call and see...
phone is ringing... hazza!
so they say, they'll probably sell it for the same price... WOOT WOOT! b/c futureshop/bestbuy are owned by the same company.. so they have similar prices...
oh happy days!!!!(but if not, they'll price match.. woot woot!)
i have enough for both season 5 and the box set...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
i'm so totally stoked... i envy those who are not around me... tee hee
ok... must get ready... "work" calls.... bah!

random quote convo:
Sydney: Weiss, have you seen Vaughn?
Weiss: That's all I am to you - just a conduit to Vaughn. Have you ever seen Vaughn and said "Hey, where's Weiss?"

alias fans.. HOLLA!

just a quick sidenote...(mmmm not really a SIDEnote...b/c it's the point of the post....mainnote?... whatever)
so tuesday the boxset/season 5 comes out on dvd (wow..really? b/c i haven't talked about it enough... sheesh!)
HOWEVER! it's being sold at the burlington bestbuy for WAY cheaper than futureshop and i gather hmv and the likes...
NOW, you can pricematch at futureshop and get a 10% discount....(guess what i'm doing bright and early tuesday morning?! i love that there's a futureshop near where i "work" tee hee)
just wanted to throw that out there...
in other news... i'm getting REALLY sick.. :( not fun... but i'm going to get some meds today... hope for the best...

random convo quote:
Vaughn: How do you wanna play this?
Sydney: You wanna be rough, or you want me to be rough?
Vaughn: You're always rough.
Sydney: No, I'm not.
Vaughn: Yes, you are.
Sydney: That's not true!
Vaughn: Yes, it is.
Sydney: Are you talking about at home, or on Ops?
Vaughn: Both. Hey, I'm not complaining!
Sydney: If I'm rough, it's because you like me to...
[pauses]
Sydney: Are we on coms?
Agent Jack Bristow: Yes, you're both on coms right now.

countdown almost over...mixed feelings..

that's right forks... it's almost that magical time...
5 DAYS TILL ALIAS!!!
i may have worked just enough to buy season 5 as well....
yes.. i'm crazy... BUT... but... ya.. i got nothing.. i'm just crazy.. NEEDING both the limited ed. (40,000 copies will be made...) AND the single set...
to my friend: don't worry.. we'll get you through this...

and that's pretty much it for now....
hoping to get together with some old friends soon...
today is the first day off i've had in over a week... needless to say, i spent it in bed...
but alas... being a grown up means responsibilities... and i must venture out into the world...
luckily, i'm armed w/ my wicked coat.. who shall simply be known as... coat.
hope ya'll are groovy!!
the hermit
ps. i'm now left countdownless...
no gilmore in sight...(as they're just in the midst of the season...)
and ya... wow... empty... is there life after countdown????

expectations = heartache...

so i found a flaw in my wonderful coat..(who as of now, is still nameless...)
the zipper.. SUCKS! and wind travels up it... so ya... but it's still an amazing coat.. and as long as i find the right way to stand/sit where wind doesn't fly up... i'm good... i love the coat...
the boots...are not only ugly.. but useless... my feet got wet and cold from walking on wet ground... it wasn't even raining! ugh... so i think i need to haul ass and go back... i'm bummed... :(
2 fave tunes of the moment: the kidney thieves: dyskrasia and imogene heap: hide and seek.
i love my pretend bf... giggle...
i miss caffeine... :S
breakdown of week:
worked...
thursday worked a double...(a lovely 12 hrs shift... where a cute flamer told me i look like i've just been fucked.. but it wasn't a compliment...)
saw stranger than fiction...
worked all wknd...
work all week...
friday went to a party and saw miranda get smashed... hilarious! hung out w/ some old friends... laughed my huge ass off... got NO sleep all wknd...
but crashed last night... and slept for a nice 11 hrs... :D (i'm still tired...)
hoping to get money today...
ALIAS COMES OUT IN 8 DAYS!!!! AND I'VE SAVED ENOUGH!!!!!

ugh, i'm so excited... i should take a week off and just revel in the joy and glory of it all...
i'm giving myself 2 wks to watch all 5 seasons and most of the extras...
the marathon begins on tues. the 21st. :D
new favorite artists: regina spektor, juliette lewis and the licks, kidney thieves (need to buy their cds... :D)

random quote: come! break me down! bury me, bury me! i am finished with you! look in my eyes! you're killing me! killing me! all i wanted was you!
i tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change, i know now, this is who i really am inside, finally found myself!

weird....

why is it when we feel bad.. spending money we don't have... ALWAYS makes us feel better?
buying movies ALWAYS makes me happy.... and i buy a lot of movies... so i'm always happy... makes sense, no?
we're on the cusp of winter... i'm hoping it'll be a good one....
i spent my week at the mall... not at blockbuster or futureshop.... but the mall...
i found the coat of my dreams... the most AWESOME sweater....(really wanna go back and get the same one in black...) AND finally got some winter boots.... to keep my toesies dry... and warm...(the boots are semi ugly...on the verge of being an eye sore... but luckily, they're covered by pants...so we can ignore the nastiness and go on w/ our lives....)
i can't wait to wear my new coat... i feel that he needs a name...(though i'm not in the habit of naming clothing items... just stuffed animals and electronics...)
and that's pretty much it... for now...

random quote: but now time has come and time, time is not on your side!

UGH!

i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired....
i'm sick and tired of dying...
i'm sick and tired of sunlight...
i'm just sick and tired...

nothing is moving... nothing is happening...
life just plain SUCKS....
i see no progress... no advancement... no future...
i'm standing still while the world is racing by...
this post is such a cliche... UGH!

drastic measures must be taken... SOON...
on a happy note...
HAPPY BDAY Z!!!! bummer i couldn't make it...

random quote: Life is pretty pathetic when even your own hallucinations lie to you.

staying true to who i am....

cybersex... GOOD!
i walked into the NICEST little store today in "downtown" D... i'd like to work there...
and then i walked home and thought that as an athiest... winter is the closest i feel to GOD... it was grey... it was cold.. it was magic...
i can't wait till my pretend bf feels better... we need to get going... on stuff... errr...
beanie is back from the gambia for a week.. i'm going to see her tomorrow!
my counter part is back from the old world! i can't wait to see her! (i miss you jugss!!)
i hope tomorrow is colder than today... i can't wait to bust out my awesome peacoat!
i love my scarf..(the one beanie made me...)
hopefully there's a new er tonight...i heart that show....
i saw a teaser trailer for evan almighty.... it made my heart smile... i love lauren graham....

random quote: you know, we get many detectives, but i can't remember one being as attractive...