a busy and unhappy hermit...

i've forgotten the meaning of hermitism.... i've been SOOOOO friggin' busy lately... using my little house as a place to upload (music) and rest...
sleep still evades me...(but i did get a FULL 6 hours!!!! whoohoo!)
i worked A LOT this week... i think i got turned down for a job i REALLY wanted... and i have more busy-ness coming up this weekend...
however... i am going to see ghost rider today and then a late screening of the number 23... AND... i get to see my boytoy! it's been months... i miss him :D
i finally made it to burlington and got my cds.. i'm tre stoked... their amazing.. if you like flaming elton john and rufus wainright, you'll LOVE scissor sisters...
i have around 150ish more cds to upload... so hopefully i'll be done by next week... ugh...
sunday night is ACADEMY AWARDS NIGHT HOSTED BY THE ELLEN!!!! i can't wait! so excited...
and that's pretty much it... i hate this lack of wintery weather... it's too damn bright... :S
random quote: geez louise, that wasn't very nice!

random groovy fact: lauren graham likes nina simone! (as do i :D {but not b/c lauren digs her, i've been a faithful simone fan for almost a decade... no, MORE than a decade... since around '94/'95ish} and feelin' good is one of the most amazing songs EVER... check it out)

MOVIES! (as always)

recent movie purchases:
little women (cukor, 1933)
moulin rouge (2 disc special ed, used, so it's crappy)
mystic pizza
robocop
robocop 2

on the horizon: hoping to go to burlington on thursday to buy scissor sisters, anyone wanna join me?

and finally... i'm in the midst of uploading ONCE AGAIN all my tunes onto mr. LeDuc...
blarg!
hopefully this will be the last time... and now it will run smoothly...
and on that note.. i'm off to shower.. and "work" and then INDIAN FOOD!!!!
whoohoo!
catch ya'll on the flip side...
ps. M come w/ me to burlington on thursday!!!

i'm REALLY getting tired of this crap!

more sony drama... so mr. LeDuc is sick... AGAIN...
i deleted a couple of files... and now... all 4658 songs... ARE GONE.... tomorrow i'm going to once again see what can be done..(b/c the situation is more complicated... more on this later...)
recent movie watchings:
pan's labirynth
the messengers
because i said so
the last king of scotland
hanibal rising

i got my hair cut... super short...
i won this thing at work...so i got this semi cool/semi lame gift package... (and made some money off it along the way)
and i'm employee of the month :D this means free food for a month! whoo hoo!
in other news... i have a small chunk to spend on movies/music...
will be doing that hopefully tomorrow... i can't wait!
and i'm once again trying to eat healthy... we'll see how long this lasts...
(b/c i need to lost 20lbs by the summer to show off my tits and my tats...at the brother's wedding...oy...)
busy week up ahead followed by a visit to my beloved counterpart! yay!
and that's it for now...
signed
the hermit
ps. jennifer garner is SMOKIN'!

blarg....

I'M TIRED....
who the hell's hogging all the sleep?!
i saw b/c i said so yesterday and the messengers on monday...(that's 6 movies out of 11 that are showing at the movies...)
i miss lauren graham from like... 6/7 yrs ago... :( i think the last few years on gilmore have totally killed her....she's AGED...she's not as gorgous as she used to be and she's not as good an actress as she started out...makes me sad...
in other news... i need to restart looking for a job... i've redone my resume... i need to get my coverletter in gear... and off we go...(send vibes ppl...)
also... my bro's engaged! that's crazy...so i'm flying to the jewland in the summer... ack!
yet another reason that i need a REAL job... so i can show off... and afford to pay for my ticket...
if anyone has any jobs that they know of... send 'em my way!
peace out
random quote: Ed, have a fucking cup of coffee!

the true meaning of friendship...(is honesty the best policy?)

tonight i learned that honesty is ugly... it's intense, it hurts, and it's emotional...
it's hard to get through... and is it all worth it at the end? i guess so...
communication is a pretty groovy thing...and eventually... i suppose it makes us all good people...
my entire life it's been easy for me to let people go... it's what i did... b/c we moved around a lot... it was sorta my life.. make friends, and move on... forget them... and reminisce every now and then... but ultimately, move on... i couldn't do it w/ this person... at all... every time i thought of ending it... smthing in me told me not yet... b/c i'd regret it... i knew i would... so i kept putting it off... b/c this friend... is magic... this friend is enchanting... and this friend has a spell on me... i love this person to death.... i really really do... and i guess that in the end, i'm glad we had our brutal moment(s) of honesty...of truth...
i'm on the cusp of a new start... w/ an old friend....and it feels good...
so friend... know that i'll always love you... and you'll always have a warm spot in my pants...

update...

so the last couple of weeks have been insanely busy...
starting w/ last monday: went to see freedom writers w/ jojo.. amazing movie... great company :D
tuesday i was interviewed by a chinaman... it was awesome... got to hang out at the freeway... i'm thinking of becoming the resident jew... so i just hung out w/ jojo and kev... and later pernell.. good times :D
wed. i jetted over to the good city to see my beloved counterpart... went to the shiva...it was sad... but i got to be there for my friend... very profound :)
thursday i had an interview for a volenteer gig... LONG story short, i thought it was going terrible... but i got it.. they wanted me :D i start valentine's day...i can't wait!
friday i went to see catch and release w/ monica...(shit movie.. but we had lick's and i got to see jen garner :D)
sat. i worked and i think it was a quiet evening...yes, i uploaded some music and then had a nap!
sunday... i think i stayed home ALL day... no... wait... i did smthing...i can't remember what... but most of the day was in bed... awesome!
monday i worked and uploaded music..
same thing tues.
today (wed.) i saw smokin' aces.. amazing... clever... violent... gruesome...
tomorrow i'm seeing pan's labirynth... can't wait!
next week i'm watching b/c i said so (w/ my girl, lauren!) and the messengers...
and we'll see what's playing at upper james....
also today..i bought 3 more books.. one of which, is the best booke EVER!
it's called a different kind of intimacy by karen finley...she's a performance artist and it's her memoirs... and her writings and experiences... amazing... i'm halfway done... and i can't wait to read the other books...(i have a stack of about 5... i can't wait!!!!)
in other news... i'm still deep in writer's block... i can't seem to write a lot of anything good... but seeing as i don't work sundays anymore... i'm putting those aside for creative writing and more reading... we'll see how it goes when i get into the flow...
and on that note.. i say tootles!
random quote: i'm screaming real loud all you hear is a whisper...