uh...little help?
i have this annoying habit of sticking my foot in my mouth... a lot... all the time...
i can be very tactless and crass... if you didn't know me, you might even think i'm rude.
along w/ this, i have the habit of thinking that everyone lives in my head...(maybe that's where all the paranoia comes from... hmmm....)
anyhoo... i had a conversation today and asked a friend a question that came off bad... and these occurences always make me realize how different we are as individuals... and how it's ok... we don't have to be identical drones...we each view things differently and that's a good thing... it helps give me perspective, and just a different view on things, i dig it... totally... it makes me think about how i have no filter... i say what's on my mind... and i say what i think, when i think it... and a lot of times it just comes out wrong...my recent volenteer work has helped put a little tiny filter back into my thought pattern.. but all in all... i'm still pretty free...i'm not too sure how to fully articulate what i mean... maybe if i simplify it...
part of me wants to shut out the voices in my head and cut out my blunt curiousity... but the larger part of me says no, fuck that! freedom of speech! say it loud say it proud.. and all that crap...
i guess ultimately, i feel bad that i offended my friend...
so friend, i'm sorry... i didn't mean it the way it came out... there was nothing in that question other than a need to understand your point of view that's so different than mine...
random quote: unzip my body take my heart out...
i can be very tactless and crass... if you didn't know me, you might even think i'm rude.
along w/ this, i have the habit of thinking that everyone lives in my head...(maybe that's where all the paranoia comes from... hmmm....)
anyhoo... i had a conversation today and asked a friend a question that came off bad... and these occurences always make me realize how different we are as individuals... and how it's ok... we don't have to be identical drones...we each view things differently and that's a good thing... it helps give me perspective, and just a different view on things, i dig it... totally... it makes me think about how i have no filter... i say what's on my mind... and i say what i think, when i think it... and a lot of times it just comes out wrong...my recent volenteer work has helped put a little tiny filter back into my thought pattern.. but all in all... i'm still pretty free...i'm not too sure how to fully articulate what i mean... maybe if i simplify it...
part of me wants to shut out the voices in my head and cut out my blunt curiousity... but the larger part of me says no, fuck that! freedom of speech! say it loud say it proud.. and all that crap...
i guess ultimately, i feel bad that i offended my friend...
so friend, i'm sorry... i didn't mean it the way it came out... there was nothing in that question other than a need to understand your point of view that's so different than mine...
random quote: unzip my body take my heart out...


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