how do we fall into this???
recently i've made some changes in my physical appearance...
the first thing everyone asked me was: are you going on a date? is this for a guy?
two things bother me about this:
1. it's so hetero sexist... what if it was for a gal?
2. why do i have to look different for a guy!? why do we automatically assume that anything positive we do in our lives is for someone else? why can't i do something nice for myself??? just b/c i feel like it?!
it's so frustrating to live in this kind of world... one that i don't understand... i have enough spine and brain not to submit to these social constructs of what women should look like and how they should behave...
i plan on dying alone. i don't need a significant other. nor do i want one. it's hard for those around me to understand that... and they try to convince me that it's a good thing.. but from everything i see, it's a terribly disfiguring disease... romantic love.
maybe i'm jaded b/c i've never been inlove.. but again, from what i've seen.. no thanx. i'd much rather die alone. i'll have my own life, my own course of action, my independence and so much more.
it's hard to articulate exactly what i mean, b/c i sound resentful and full of scorn, which i'm not... but i'm so unclear about this idea of sharing your life w/ one person...
i don't believe in monogamy, or in coupledom... i think it's absurd, i think it's weird, i don't get it...
it drives me nuts that people put a value to my life and accomplishments only by who i've been dating and for how long... can't i stand alone? for myself? why do i need a partner to complete the picture? i'm already full and whole.
i dunno, i'm not sure what i'm trying to say... it's late and i haven't slept today...(did all wknd though :D)
meh... whatever...
i'm going to eat and watch some alias before bedtime...
relevant quote: three cheers for eve!
the first thing everyone asked me was: are you going on a date? is this for a guy?
two things bother me about this:
1. it's so hetero sexist... what if it was for a gal?
2. why do i have to look different for a guy!? why do we automatically assume that anything positive we do in our lives is for someone else? why can't i do something nice for myself??? just b/c i feel like it?!
it's so frustrating to live in this kind of world... one that i don't understand... i have enough spine and brain not to submit to these social constructs of what women should look like and how they should behave...
i plan on dying alone. i don't need a significant other. nor do i want one. it's hard for those around me to understand that... and they try to convince me that it's a good thing.. but from everything i see, it's a terribly disfiguring disease... romantic love.
maybe i'm jaded b/c i've never been inlove.. but again, from what i've seen.. no thanx. i'd much rather die alone. i'll have my own life, my own course of action, my independence and so much more.
it's hard to articulate exactly what i mean, b/c i sound resentful and full of scorn, which i'm not... but i'm so unclear about this idea of sharing your life w/ one person...
i don't believe in monogamy, or in coupledom... i think it's absurd, i think it's weird, i don't get it...
it drives me nuts that people put a value to my life and accomplishments only by who i've been dating and for how long... can't i stand alone? for myself? why do i need a partner to complete the picture? i'm already full and whole.
i dunno, i'm not sure what i'm trying to say... it's late and i haven't slept today...(did all wknd though :D)
meh... whatever...
i'm going to eat and watch some alias before bedtime...
relevant quote: three cheers for eve!
posted by indigo:actress, entertainter, jew-ess... at 12:34 AM
3 Comments:
I am married and I want to be with my husband for forever, at least on good days (yes, we haven´t been married for long time :) ), but still I think that you´re absolutely right. I think that it´s normal that you make your own decisions and if you´re not looking for a long-termed relationship, then it´s not anyone else´s business. At least it shouldn´t be.
HELLO!!!!
I find yours blog much beautiful one, I would have a lot wished to read yours written but putroppo I do not know the language, but I understand a P2o English.
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Wow! Deep! But somehow not a shocker coming from you.
"it's so frustrating to live in this kind of world... one that i don't understand... i have enough spine and brain not to submit to these social constructs of what women should look like and how they should behave..."
so eloquently put. No, I do not think your jaded. It might hit you like a truck one day two when least expected...will be interesting if it does.
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