flowers on the wall....

Well, now, i been hearin' you're concerned about my happiness
But all a' that thought you're a-givin' me is conscience, i guess
If i was walkin' in your shoes i wouldn't worry none
So you and your friends don't worry 'bout me, i'm havin' lots of fun

[chorus]
Countin' flowers on the wall
That don't bother me at all
Playin' solitaire 'til dawn with a deck of fifty-one
Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' captain kangaroo
Now don't tell me i've a-nothin' to do

Last night i dressed in tails pretendin' i was on the town
As long as i can dream it's hard to slow this cowboy down
So please don't give a thought to me i'm really doin' fine
And you can always find me here and havin' quite a time

[chorus]
Countin' flowers on the wall
That don't bother me at all
Playin' solitaire 'til dawn with a deck of fifty-one
Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' captain kangaroo
Now don't tell me i've a-nothin' to do

Well, it's good to see you, i must go, i know i look a fright
Well, any ol' way my eyes are not accustomed to this light
And my boots are not accustomed to this kind a' street
So i must go back to my room and make my day complete

[chorus]
Countin' flowers on the wall
That don't bother me at all
Playin' solitaire 'til dawn with a deck of fifty-one
Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' captain kangaroo
Now don't tell me i've a-nothin' to do
A-don't tell me i've a-nothin' to do

an original DEDLY...

so, for months now, i've been complaining about the lack of space in my tiny little world...(that extends both physically and mentally) and now i desperately need some kind of unit and storage space for all my lovely DVDs...
and for weeks (ok, not really, but for a while now) julie's been teasing me about my festivus present... so i finally figured out that it was shelves, for my dvds :D
thursday night, after working a double and watching sweeny todd, we stopped by miranda's and picked up my shelves... not only were they fantabulous, she and her father, MADE THEM FOR ME! wow! a custom made shelving unit specifically for my dvds, for a particular place in my room!
if i had a heart or a soul, i would cry... so we loaded the unit and headed to my place, and thus began the rearranging of my room...it fits around 300 dvds, which is amazing, all my dvds are in one place, all alphabetized, and in order, in their little place... all my tv shows are there too... i have little room left, but for now, i plan to cool it w/ the dvd madness... (speaking of which, new additions: starship troopers, the golden child, the indiana jones box set, crouching tiger hidden dragon, oldboy, natural born killers and season 1 of dexter)
i've moved shit around and now most of my books have homes too, and the crucial vhs... needless to say, i'm a happy camper :D julie's amazing... (YOU'RE AMAZING! AND SO IS PAPA DAVE!)
i'm off this wknd, after a LONG week of working 8 shifts.. in 5 days... i'm relaxing and watching my movies.. hoping to get to dexter by tomorrow...(finishing up indiana and hopefully crouching/oldboy)...
and working a lot this up coming week too... sigh...
peace out for now!
random quote: dexter! what the fuck? what which fuck?

and nobody's pale in miami!
so that means she's a vampire!
a gross british titty vampire!

(BEST QUOTE EVER!!!)

(ya, that's right, it's not even 8 am yet... on xmas day.. i can't sleep... i guess it's dexter time again :D)

peace out yo!
the lonely jew on christmas...

trying to find order in my head....

first off, new dvds to add to the collection:
angels in america
dying young
interview w/ the vampire
my best friend's wedding...

2nd, i just lost my train of thought... oh yeaH! there it is, my new obsession is dexter... such a good show! thanx to my friend ryan, i'm now watching season 2... and on boxing day i'm going to buy season one! i can't wait! there's this super hot chick on it! jaime murray, i think her name is, she's SMOKIN'! also, i really like deb and dex.. they're super cool and gorgeous talented actors!
(wow, upon re-reading this, i totally sound like a high school cheerleader.. ugh...:S)

lastly, i miss ppl... and i hate other ppl... and it's a crazy roller coaster in my brain and it's making me dizzy... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

so much work to do after the holidays.. i need to get my stereo fixed... i hate the radio, and i miss my music!
k, it's shopping and work time!
peace out, ya'll!
random quote:
Rita Bennett: You know I hope they catch him today, and I'm not a violent person, but I hope they hurt him. Have a good day
[kisses him]
Dexter Morgan: [to himself] Make up your mind.

holy cleaning batman!

so i decided to dedicate sunday to cleaning... blah....
i've so far spent over an hour (closer to two) cleaning out my stuff... it's amazing how much crap one can accumulate in a short time... and to make it worse, i'm a collector of junk... stacks of papers... cds, dvds, vhs, books, coursewares, textbooks... ugh... i need to move to a bigger place...
the hardest decision i've made so far is to store my vhs... i've kept a few that i tend to watch a lot, and put the rest in a box in storage... sigh... painful... i'm now doing laundry and taking a short break... just finished vacuuming and then it's putting everything back together and taking a shower and resuming the movie marathon...(bought 4 more dvds on friday: angels in america, dying young, interview w/ a vampire, and my best friend's wedding, the latter 3 i owned on vhs)
and then i'm working A LOT all week... :S bummer, but plenty of $$$$ to buy more dvds :D
k, i should get back to work...
so on that final note,
happy holidays and a groovy new year to you all!!!
may the best of your past be the worst of your future...
xoxo
the dvd mistress

new additions...

black snake moan (and now that i've seen it again, it's even more brilliant than the first time i saw it!)
bug (same thing)
dead man walking
face/off
the #23

needless to say, i'm a happy camper...:D
random quote: Oh, Laz, I know you're hurtin'. But you should know more than me, ain't no better cure for the blues than some good pussy.

LIGHTNING!

today, something clicked...
lightning struck my brain, and a storm began brewing...
i'm at that crucial part of my life, where i'm going nowhere, doing nothing, and motivation is slim...
i never thought this is where i'd be at my age... w/ my experiences, and skills...
but then there's this fork... or a plank.. i'm not sure...
after the holidays i'm going to do something drastic and potentially life altering...
we'll see if it's a match.... and then hopefully, i can finally find meaning in life...

relevant quote:
Johnny: You don't have to be afraid anymore.
Frankie: I am. I'm afraid. I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone. I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become. I don't want to stay at my job for the rest of my life but I'm afraid to leave. And I'm just tired, you know, I'm just so tired of being afraid.

ETA

i also bought more movies..(surprise, surprise..)
the original hairspray
the collector's ed. of the silence of the lambs
the collector's ed. of jackie brown
losing isaiah

signed:
the movie fanatic...

see! i TOLD you i was psychic!

so the night began earlier that day when i thought it was a good idea to get out of bed... hahahaha, not really, but thursday began like any other day: early after a sleepless night...(i don't know what's going on, but i can't sleep lately!)
so worked... it was a ridiculous day, what w/ the holidays and all... and then i went to a screening of the golden compass w/ julie....
on the way home, while waiting for the bus, julie (whose bad memory rivals my own) says to me, (i'm paraphrasing, of course) "i have very prophetic dreams, but i never remember them....but i know why that is."
me: really? why?
Julie: b/c i'm psychic! and so my brain is protecting me from all the future things!
me: of course.
Julie: so ya, i'm psychic. (big smile on her face)
julie is ever entertaining :D i heart you!

on fri. i worked A LOT... my day began at 9am and ended at 10:45 pm (two jobs... ugh...) sat. i worked a double at job 2, and then i got home and julie and i hung out and ate a lot of good food :D
and finally, on a random note, i've been watching the extras on the silence of the lambs dvd, and i'm learning a lot! it's got some really fascinating documentaries w/ lots of inside info and stuff! i dig it!
i might be going shopping today and buying more dvds... not sure yet...
semi-relevant quote: it rubs the lotion on its skin, it does this whenever its told...

friday night...

we decided that we all needed to get out... have some fun.... get all sexy and go wild!
the destination was a strip club followed by more debauchery....
after a lot of hemming and hawing we finally made it downtown to one of the skuziest, nastiest saddest clubs....
outside smoking, were the stripper, some drunk and a guy who's face looked like chopped liver...
suddenly, there was a crash! the drunk dropped a beer bottle from his pocket...we left and then minutes later (after a smoke) came back, and went in... it was dark and empty... there was loud music and a GIANT screen showing a snowy football game...we tried not to touch anything for fear of STDS...
we went to the bar and were served by a slightly overweight and VERY unattractive bartender, i had a square drink: peach schnapps shot...and we settled off to the left of the stage, with a good view and we were waiting for the show....
a muscular chick came on stage, wiped the pole and set a blanket on the floor and off we were... she was pretty amazing, and none of us could get our eyes off her body! she kept her top on most of the show and was bottomless... then she was done and off the stage and blew kisses to us all...
then there was a pause and we were talking and what not, when a creepy guy sat directly behind our table and struck up a conversation with us, and then bought us shots! i had a tequila rose which was REALLY good, and then he left.... so he wasn't so creepy after all (ps. the shot girl was right there, so he didn't spike our drinks) and then the unattractive bar tender did her show, but DIDN'T wipe the pole clean....gross... and she wasn't very interesting...
so we decided that we'd watch one more girl and head out to a gay bar down the street...
and then this girl came on, tall, lanky and somewhat awkward... she danced to good rock music and as she twirled by the mirror and touched herself, i wondered how much did she hate herself right now... there was something sad about this one... b/c she was trying too much, maybe... but then we left (which sucked, b/c there were more ppl there) and we headed to the gay club, which was closed, so we wondered for a bit and ended up at the porn theatre! that's right... the XXX place! but the larger part of the group didn't want to go, so we left, but i'm going back! (w/ mon!!!!) and we ended up at tailgate charlie's and had a few more drinks (and by we, i mean, they) and then it was time to go home... so i managed to catch the last bus that went my way, and stopped off at the barn, got some good food, and then went home... watched a bit of scarface and passed out at around... 3/4 am... and today i have a the day off :D lots of movie watching!!!
and ya... interesting night...
take care friends!
xoxo