LIGHTNING!

today, something clicked...
lightning struck my brain, and a storm began brewing...
i'm at that crucial part of my life, where i'm going nowhere, doing nothing, and motivation is slim...
i never thought this is where i'd be at my age... w/ my experiences, and skills...
but then there's this fork... or a plank.. i'm not sure...
after the holidays i'm going to do something drastic and potentially life altering...
we'll see if it's a match.... and then hopefully, i can finally find meaning in life...

relevant quote:
Johnny: You don't have to be afraid anymore.
Frankie: I am. I'm afraid. I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone. I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become. I don't want to stay at my job for the rest of my life but I'm afraid to leave. And I'm just tired, you know, I'm just so tired of being afraid.