ugh, me and my big stupid mouth...

paranoia's a real bitch...
i think my crush doesn't like me...
today i was sleep deprived (as always) and i was talking to one of my managers and was telling her how much i love the class w/ crush, and how she's such a good instructor... and that if she was still a trainer, i'd totally hire her!
so manager said: then ask her (very nonchalant...)
me: i can't do that.. she's not a trainer anymore... and also, i don't think she likes me...(whisper)
manager: why?
me: b/c i'm me... i dunno..
manager: are you being crazy?
me: yes... and i totally know it and i can't help it...

i have no idea where all that bounty of information came from...

i wish crush would train me... sigh...

random quote:
Madonna: Do we wanna be accepted by Hollywood?
Dancers: No!
Madonna: Do we care what people think about us?
Dancers: No!
Madonna: Do we want people to kiss our ass?
Dancers: Yes!
Madonna: Okay now, do we want an "R" rating or an "X" rating?
Dancers: "X"!
Madonna: "X" for extra fun!