ugh...!

how can i change everything about me and not want to commit suicide???

i feel censored w/ this whole thing w/ crush...

today i felt like she was trying her hardest not to smack me.. she told me to shut up...(not in so many words...) i didn't sense a joking tone... she wasn't nice to today...she's a fake...

it upsets me...

i'm upset...

i feel off balance.. more so than usual...

i think i'm severely insane..

i don't like these ups and downs...

i feel unsettled...

i feel like a bruise on a beautiful body...

like i'm slow dancing in a burning room...(i stole that from someone from work...)

sigh... right now, i hate this... i hate..being...which is not to say that i want to die.. b/c i don't... at all...

i'm feeling overwhelmed...

empty...

full...

confused...

hurt and angry...

i'm going to work out all this frustration...

random lyric: funnyman could never be anything else...