disenchanted....

yet again, another post about a former crush...

i've been growing VERY disenchanted w/ her... not sure what it is... sometimes, when she asks me to do something for her, i feel like her bitch... i find her VERY fake...and she's a bad actor... her hate for me is so obvious... i think i'm done... and i've said it before, but now it feels authentic and driven home...

today she cemented that she hates me... i know i'm not crazy! i have proof...

i met w/ schmoopsie the other day and it was FABULOUS! we were chatting like old friends! we're going to meet for coffee at some point in the hopefully near future.

i've been promoted at work... i start next week... i'm excited...
i'm exhausted... i have no food at home and i have a crazy couple of weeks ahead of me... i start my certification for personal training on sat. ugh... so busy... all i wanna do is sleep... or stay in bed all day... for one day...
i think in march i'm going to plan a girl's night of horror movies and junk food...

and on that note.. i have some stuff to do and then hopefully go to bed...(early day tomorrow... work out, work, perhaps class, friend's bday, grocery shopping...)

random quote: nobody's really my friend, my friend. nobody wants to hold me back as i fall through the holes in life, i stumble blind folded...